Ever look at something long enough it becomes distorted?
How about watching 40 minutes of Netflix about LA teens + not getting enough sleep last night = trying to make yourself presentable to go out a nightmare.
First you want to cover everything up, but it’s the summer and it looks so wrong and obvious. So you do the opposite, and then you feel like you’re trying too hard. Try something that always looks good and you feel like people will notice you’re wearing that… again.
Totally self consumed thoughts. It’s making me want to reach for a sedative or a stimulant so I can avoid these thoughts. I do not want to go out tonight. However, I am forcing myself to, if at least just for a little while to break the isolation cycle.
Ah. ride is here, will have to cut this short.